song about me

2009-10-10T11:48:00.000-07:00

oh ho...when the last time i blogged?!

haha, just been through the first month of semester! awesome month so far, wonderful friends, awesome roomie..studies...not to bad so far!...but just had a little tiff with my parents?!?!

haha, well i mean i shouldnt be laughing about having tiffs with them, but...hey...i am reflecting...

u see, when i am in singapore, i seem to be so use to private life that includes them....but somehow, now that i have been alone for like what, 2 year? i am having a personal private life, a family private life...i duno wats the deal with having two private life, but hey....i needa re-define their role in my life... i mean they not only support me financially, being there giving me moral support and giving me advise on any issues....i think, i am old enough to er..control my own life?? I mean, i am still my daddy and mummy's girl, but hey, we grow up dont we...i cant always have my mum buying my intimates for me, and my dad buying the ugliest coat for me and expect me to wear them like they are nice. I have my own life, my own ideas...no complains if i am 12...but NO.

so. its not that i dun need them anymore, but the sky is high and the emperor is far, i know what i am doing and i am good with it. omg, i sounded so rebellious?!?!?! haha, i am so late...ppl start at 16, i start at 22. hahaha.....part and parcel of growing up. No complaints there.....

。。。

2009-08-30T22:02:00.000-07:00

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今天希望可用华语将整篇打完！！！

在家里又那么一点点无聊哦！上了几乎三个月的班，天天忙得焦头烂额，可是却乐在其中，学了不少做人的小技巧，学了不少职场的小知识。好像又认识了自己，发觉自己好好胜，不能输，也输不起。每天活在别人的期待中，多少都有点辛苦，可是却觉得过得还满充实的，真是哟个不折不扣的工作狂。好担心以后毕业了还会这样子，工作大于天！！有一点点期待，还有一点点害怕。咳，工作的事以后再说吧，现在好好的毕业就够了。。。

最近妈妈又开始问我男朋友的事了！！！总是每当妈妈问时，才会想起这件事来，太迟钝了！可是一个人够了那么久，发现突然有个人在身边太不习惯了！！而且书中经常提到阿，爱情，是美丽的痛苦。。多慎人啊！！我倒觉得它有点像罂粟花，看着美丽，好奇的尝一口，发现感觉不错。。等效果没了，便苦苦得还想要，那种痛苦让人难以忍受，折磨得许多人体无完肤。。。不觉得很恐怖嘛。。。既然常常连地奔跑，都快成了空中飞人！！妈妈，只是希望有个人把握牢牢的邦在家，哈哈，其实也不是什么大事，反正我的心永远都在有妈妈爸爸的地方嘛，怕什么。。。

阿又要去美国了，想想又能够自有一点点了。人好奇怪毫矛盾哦，自由的时候总想有个人管一下，反之有人管了以后总希望自由。。一方面喜欢穿漂亮的衣服，却又舍不得花钱。。。最后一个星期了！！但愿可以开开心心的过，最近有点神经质，老是胡思乱想，可能前一阵子把工作塞满了头脑，一停后，脑子空空的，便开始瞎转悠，哈哈，担心自己可能会烙下什么病呢！！

好开心哦！！终于用华语写完了。。。

2009-04-30T07:31:00.000-07:00

Silly................

My friend told me that girls who tends to go overseas early from china tends to be a little silly and simple, unlike the girls who have always been in China, smart, practical, high eq. I never thought it would be true, never. I thought had pretty high EQ, (maybe not IQ...bleh). Never. But after a few minor details and incidents which i didnt really put it to heart, i realize that, YES i have super low EQ. I dont know how to control my emotions and behavior. I dont know how to act differently to different people. I realize I am really bad a people skill. Maybe I am not that bad, but neither am i good or anything. I feel so bad. I feel like my life is too comfortable to realize that I am actually a person who do not know how to interact with people. I am still the only child at heart, getting used to all the pampering and expect people to adhere to me. gotta change...........................

ps: gotta write something, or i will explode.

2009-04-19T19:30:00.000-07:00

如何成为男人缘超旺的万人迷

文：苏芩

女人最想成为什么样的女人？

漂亮的女人？性感的女人？博学的女人？事业成功的女人？

都不是，其实，女人最想成为的女人是“有男人缘的女人”。

接连好几位女性朋友来信诉苦：“为什么我成不了抢手的女人呢？为什么周围的男人愿意跟我成为好朋友、好哥儿们、甚至是无话不谈的知己，但就是拒绝和我成为恋人？”

不可否认，世界上就是有许许多多这样的女孩子，样子不丑，脾气不坏，条件不错，但就是命里的桃花总不开，男人爱跟她交往，勾肩搭背称兄道弟，但一挑起感情话题，立马把她当成绝缘体，永远不来电。

眼看着周围一个个相貌学历不如自己的女人纷纷成了幸福的小主妇，她们也哀叹：“我的春天什么时候才来到？！”

有些女人天生就是没有男人缘，再漂亮也逗引不起男人的荷尔蒙。当然，男人们管她们叫做没有女人味的女人。

什么叫没有女人味？

也许是看恐怖片的时候两只眼睛冒出兴奋的绿光；也许是外出游玩时从不喊累，一个劲儿地冲冲冲；也许是一起吃饭时拼酒把同桌的男人拼到了桌子底下……总之，“野蛮女友”登陆中国以来，数以万计的女人找到了人生理想，誓把野蛮进行到底。

说归说，更多的女孩子缺乏男人缘，不是因为“野蛮行为”，而是因为一些性格上的问题。开朗的女孩子讨人喜欢，但只有也开朗也娇羞的女孩子才让男人迷恋。举个很简单的例子，《红楼梦》中的林黛玉毛病忒多，任性多疑又刻薄，可照样迷死贾宝玉。薛宝钗样样出色，宽容大度博学广识，可就是没有男人缘。

男人喜欢什么样的女人，你该明白了吧？

可以自私一点，但一定真实一点；可以任性一点，但一定可爱一点；可以成熟一点，但一定娇柔一点……

在恋爱问题上，幼稚的女人比成熟的女人抢手，善于表露自己情感的女人比善于隐藏自己情感的女人受欢迎。别疑惑，男人就这副品位。

毕竟，社会中的女人越来越强，社会中的男人越来越不自信，宝钗式的女人令人敬，但不足以招人爱。

想招男人缘，记住：做男人的妹妹，别当男人的姐姐！

也许下一季，就是你的桃花红了！

http://suqinbk.blog.sohu.com/114262700.html

花木兰被识破女身后的结局

2009-04-01T18:16:00.000-07:00

花木兰被识破女身后的结局
文：苏芩

电影《花木兰》开拍在即，赵薇版花木兰英姿飒爽的扮相也已露面。当然，作为中国历史上最著

名的“武才女”，花木兰的知名度亦是非同寻常的高！女扮男装替父从军，十二年征战沙场立下

战功，不是个一般的女人。可以想象，这个花木兰必定极为剽悍。

《木兰辞》中的花木兰卸甲归乡后，战友们终于知道了她的女子身份，到这里，文章戛然而终。

每次读到这里，都好奇：公布了真实性别后的花木兰命运走向如何呢？

苦思冥想，大胆为她猜测了几种结局。

猜想一：成为女中楷模、去全国各地巡回演讲。当然，这个可能性较低，如果让个女人四处传授

军事知识和经验，男人的面子实在难堪。从日后几千年的中国妇女状况来看，这个结局的几率不

太高。

猜想二：因罪犯欺君而满门抄斩。这就极有可能了。皇帝真是个非一般的职业，他们的脾性常常

是喜怒无常甚至不知好歹，有些人明明功大如天却总因些芝麻绿豆的小事情而锒铛入狱。花木兰

连性别都感欺瞒，很难说皇帝老儿心里会不会舒坦！

猜想三：嫁给大将军，成为诰命夫人。如果皇帝开明，那花小姐的命运极有可能会朝着这个方向

发展。当然，如果花木兰是个美女，皇帝有可能会藏入后宫自己享用，但十几年的仗打下来，花

木兰年纪一定不小，而且如此骁勇的女人必定缺点女人味，皇帝恐怕没胆量享受！故而，就顺水

推舟做个人情赏给同样剽悍的大将军吧。（嘿嘿，从此这两口子有的打了……）

猜想四：成为著名的化妆指导。十二年女扮男装竟然没被识破，足见这花木兰易容的本领有多

大！不过还有个问题，那时候的男生未免也太纯真了吧，竟然连女人都不认识！可见性知识该大

大的普及！

猜想五：嫁给了村中的农夫，生几个孩子，耕田种地了却余生。这是最靠谱的一种结局，老百姓

都是这么过来的，花木兰也不可能例外。男权社会中，朝廷并不鼓励女人学做花木兰，所以从此

后，再没见过这样的女人。

……

原文：http://suqinbk.blog.sohu.com/111394789.html

2009-03-13T17:57:00.001-07:00

Its friday!!
That doesnt mean I will be going out because I am seriously out of $$$. Spent sooooo much in Newyork that I am left with practically 100 USD this month, with 15 more days to go. The I shall not talk about shopping today, which is very painful for me.

Lets talk about my diet problem. Since not alot of people know( and read) my blog, and from my knowledge only you, yes you, LSY, you know who you are, read my blog, I really want to do something about it. I am really stressing out here at BC, so yes, food is my best friend and I wanna kick them all away!!!, for health purpose also.

Yes, people say I do not need to go on diet, but I have the freedom to do so(First amendment). I am not going to care about what other people think cos this time I am going with my inclination(according to Mill). See, I use all my knowledge taught in school.

So, this is my plan, I am trying to cut down on my carbohydrate in take to only one muffin worth of carb, and say 2-3 bowls of granola, cereal or oatmeal. The the rest will all be vegetables or tofu for protein. I am trying to cut down also my meat intake cos the meat here ae injected with hormones...YUCKS!. anw, hopefully this will work???

I need support from you. Yes you. I know you will support me no matter wat. Thank you :)

Quote, Quotes, Quoted

2009-03-09T07:52:00.001-07:00

Quote, Quotes, Quoted

Some funny quotes that I heard(or said) in everyday life. (Will be updated frequently)

"Posers go to BU" - Computer in Management class professor(9th March 2009)

favs at 21(Gotta do this when I am still 21)

2009-03-04T15:02:00.000-08:00

Favs when 21

I gotta do this when I am still 21. Hopefully, when I look back, I wouldn't think that I am silly or something. Hehe.

My Fav model Jessica Stam :)

As always, Jay Chou

My Chip n Dale!!

I hate to admit this...But you must admit, they are pretty addictive.
(I use to despise them as another korean boy band, but i guess i am not so strong mentally).

My fav J pop singer Ayumi Hamasaki. Dont ask me why, I just like her.

Some of the american soap drama i watch religiously

Grey's Anatomy

Ugly Betty

Bones

The Mentalist(omg, he is SO charming)

Fav Hollywood actor: Matt Damon. Unbelievably HOT and charming

Fav Hollywood actress: Angelina Jolie. I am not kidding if I tell you I am willing to turn into a Lesbian for her.I am serious.

My fav cereal. I literally run on cereal, I eat cereal for all 3 meals sometimes. I am weird I know.

Fav coffee: Starbucks. Grande Cappuccino with Skim Milk. To me, Starbucks = coffee. Or Dunkin

Fav fast food: McDonald. Seriously, if you tell me you don't like Mc, please don't be my friend. :)

Fav Brand: Burberry. I have a lot. Wait, someone buy me a pair of shoes from there??

My Fav chinese TV show 武林外传， how many times did I watch it? hmm... at least 8 time. :)

I ran out of favs.......
Yes this is all my fav when now(still 21).

Reminiscing....

2009-03-03T21:47:00.000-08:00

It has been a long time since i last blogged. Was just going through others' blogs, i found my old blogs. It is really interesting reading what I have written in the past, and some are just funny and naive. Oh, well I have grown and have decided to post something for the sake of posting something.

Went to Ichen's place for spring break. I am suppose to do some work, oh well, I really want to enjoy my break. Totally stressed out during the last two months moving, fitting in and getting use to the BC style. I bet I could go non stop complaining about things, but considering I am still alive, I thought it could have been worse.

Met up with April in the morning, realizing that we can still chat alot, and felt really good. We even came out with a conclusion: This is a depressing era. It may not be the depression, but it is definitely depressing. Try checking out BBC or CNN, looking at the news make me feel sick and lost. I admit I am self-denial and cowardice since I totally stopped reading such news, and get on with whatever i should be focusing on. I am really tired of such a turbulent age, and am really praying for all this to be over and move on to a better times where people can sit down and discuss about poverty, environment and extinction, instead of finance, economy and real estate.
I feel really pessimistic right now! oh i shouldnt.

Meeting with all my friends definitely cheer me up. I really miss them and my comfort zone back in Milwaukee. Reflecting on my first impression of Milwaukee(where birds do not lay eggs and dogs do not shit. ops pardon my language), I did enjoy my time here and really value my life lessons and my friends here. It is an experience I will never forget.

Hopefully I will be able to fit into Boston and enjoy BC as much as I have enjoyed Marqutte.

i dun need title

2007-01-24T19:58:00.003-08:00

ok....i really dun wanna act vain and bimbo....(i am not a bimbo)..............so i was watching tis show on channel 54 on cable.....oh my god.....girls...and boys......pls protect ur skin!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

according to some reliable resources.....80% of our skin is/are actually damaged....ARGH.............then we will old faster!!!!!...I DUN WAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ok...we need to start anioxidation....and sunblock......

yes...

dun ask me wat is oxidation....ask the chem ppl....

but the thing is...when ur skin is oxidised....u will look older!!!...argh...imagine urself still in ur twenties....but look like 30 yrs old..............yes............

ppl.....start puting ur sun block....spf 30 at least...to block the UV RAYS.....

i dun need title

2007-01-24T19:58:00.002-08:00

i dun need title

2007-01-24T19:58:00.001-08:00

2007-01-20T19:19:00.000-08:00

eh...do i need a title??

kkz....eh....i realise i nv blog for 1 yr leh....my god.......haha....like blogging very fun meh..haha...

so...if u duno, i have been gg for golf lessons....yes....y did i go???....when i dun like to show myself under the sun??....duno...for fun lor...

if u think golf is about using the club and hit the ball and the ball will auto roll into the hole?.......u r wrong.....i still cant get my ball to fly pass tt 50m mark...aiyah....so lousy....haix..haha...but i can do it one....then i will challenge all the begainners...hahahaha....

oh...very impt...my instructor is mr lim....but tts not impt....he has a super cute son...yes....and plays very well.................................his balls(using no. 7) flies further then mine(wif wood)....wood is suppose to travel super far one........... omg...he is soooo cute.........but he is only 10...soo sad...

there r no cute guys in then golf range........only old men.....................yes,....very sad.....haha....

cya nxt time!!!!!!

2007-01-18T02:39:00.000-08:00

yo....finally a new blog skin....
i like the song act...so...nth much.....
eh....i am NOt gg to write diaries here......

anw.......i duno y i wanna "restart" my blog leh...i know its kinda stagnant...and breeding mosquito and stuff...haha...

anw...y r u reading my blog!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!????????????????????

yes....i asked u to....hahaha

anw...i read in the news paper that to slim down in a mr healthy manner, u will only be shedding like 1 to 2 kgs per mth........................HOW COULD TT BE!!!!

i hope to loose like 10kgs in 2 mth lah....which is terriberly bad for health....haha...but a bit prob for me leh...cos i am a taurus mah....so cant resist good food....including mcdonald....

have i ever told you how much i like mc.....eh.....u know?...oh...okie....

btw...my parents dun let me blog leh...cos they fear tt i may write some stuff tt will get too political.....or tooo sensitive...or too....duno wat tt will get me into some big trouble.....which i dun understand...anw.....i think its fun to write crap on my blog.....

so sry to make u read so much blog.....

i will write something proper the nxt time....bb!!!!!!!!!

vya nxt time........

Housewarmin BBQ

2006-01-01T20:00:00.000-08:00

Hey…a really fun day tday. Didn’t blog for ages…haha…hope u dun mind. Ha…tdays my housewarming bbq!!!...invited a few of my close friends…hmm…O5S21 got Vanessa, cy and py!...Van bought a chip and dale(C&D) mug and a C&D toy!....aww…sooooo cute. Haha….and cy actually spent his time, fixin a pooh bear jigsaw for me!.......its really nice of him….though the jigsaw looks kinda cheap(erm we have to be honest) haha…but I can see the effort..haha…really…had Pizza hut for lunch and watched wo cai wo cai wo cai cai cai…haha…den van started surfin the net. Cy and py started playin my ps2...haha...they were so funny!!!...den because of them, i cant pick my friends up from bukit batok, bout they manage to find their way here!!....ha.....received soo many presents!....haha...tks sooo much!!!

ha...then we played cards(asshole dia dee) haha...i was nv the asshole...anw, when we wanted t start the fire, started pourin....just my luck...anw, we..as in joyce and da xiong and kiwi tried to start the fire in the rain...but it was really unsuccessful. So we waited just outside the clubhouse and play cards lor!...haha...

den finally the rain stopped( finally)...it was quite late le...we started the fire...but the adults keep rushin us!!!!......and blamin us for bookin only 1 pit...i almost exploded......control....so the adults just sat dere and eat. and we cooked..haha...i helped a little, but didnt help much....cos they dun trust my cooking..anw...and theres this irritatin fat guy(my mum's colleague's hubby) keep trin to teach jason wat to do....he sucks.....den they are a few irritatin ppl durin the bbq...

i shall not put their real name here, just in case they read it or something

1. the skinny monkey they talks and move non stop, thinkin that she is mature or something...and watches only soap opera!!...she pri 5 nxt yr and she doesnt watch cartoon....ok..personally i feel tt its not call mature...it ACT mature...and she touches my babies like its hers!!!!...didnt even ask my permission!!!!....,my baby no. 1 my darlin cello!!!...even my mum didnt dare to touch him(i suppose its male..haha)....and my baby no. 2 PS2.........fine......my baby no. 3 my laptop....my kitties!!!...my UNO stacko!!!!.......now, i cant find my uno stacko,s dice...and my shark!!!!..my darlin shark!!!!...the upper jaw was detatched from the lower jaw...so u press and press the teeth and nths gonna happen....wat the hell!!!!!.....i hate kids!!!!!!

ok..nxt..the little 2.5 yrs old...ha...ok..i am bias...i dun really blame her cos shes innocent and young and cute...but she stuck my ear digger into my orange...hmm....my ear digger is made of wood...marvell her strength...so...she might be the culprit for spoilin my shark....(frankly i duno who actually spoiled it)..ha...but on the whols she cute lah....

now...the two little BRATS!!!!!....not talkin bout py and cy....its my mum's colleague's niece's kids. They didnt even call my mum and dad(no manners)...den wantin to play mu ps2...of course, as a host, i let them play lor...but they locked the door........y must they lock the door???? can anyone tell me??...wat if they spoil my ps2????......hey cumon!!!...i am rich doesnt mean i can but ps2 all the time!!!!!....famn dose kids!!!!!!.....TOTAL BRATS!!!!!!......F THEM LAH!!!!...ok i am really angry!!!! i apologise for usin vulgarities..but i cant stand them...

ok, i shall the mention anything bout her cos i dink she noes my blog add...anw...u(as in she) sucks.....no manners...no innitiative.....wat the hell is she doin.......thinkin tt shes better then me......yah rite....wait another billion yrs.

ok....enuf of the irritatin kids and annoyin adults.....there are some ppl i would like to thank......

joyce, shih ying, audris, jing wei, jason, yiwi, yan jun, van, cy,, and py for warmin my house and all the lovely presents, and the effort ur put in in BBQin....haha....tks soooo soooo much....

conclusion:

I HATE KIDS!!!!!..I MEAN...ESP THOSE WITHOUT MANNERS!!!!!......MUMMYS PLS FOR HEAVENS SAKE...AND FOR OUR FUTURES SAKE.....TEACH UR CHILDREN SOME MANNERS....ok...tks....

Ah xian...

2005-11-26T05:52:00.000-08:00

HAHA...sooo happy today...got to go out wif my really really close friend of mine...THX...haha...she soooo cool.....her hair's cooler than any of my male friends yah!!!!...haha...and we bought a lot of stuff...and a white blouse for her...which i dink is quite nice...haha...though is 20 bucks....cos she is gonna go Thailand and do CIP...although she has some problem...and she doesnt dare to speak up...but i guess she would be alrite yah...haha...think she shld bully the bimbo girls back just like how she used to bully me...wuahaha...ha...crap...

Haix...too lazy at home...didnt even go out lah!....ha...though i wanna watch a lot of movies...erm...Harry, CHicken Little, Aeon Flux, erm, Narnia...and blah blah blah..........haix...but i am just pure lazy....and has just bacame the member of the Bored Club.....haix....BORING!!!!!!

YEH!

2005-11-23T06:00:00.000-08:00

haha....holiday again sia...soo happy...ha...so cum blog lah...ha....aiyah..holi life very slack...and still SInGle....a bit sian lah..haha...lifes not excitin AT ALL...as in....not tt my life is dull without a bf..but...more colour..haha...but...since i have a new crush...i dun mind lah....haha...he is SWEDISH....ISSNT TT NICE!!!!!...haha...too bad...didnt take a pic of him/...DIDNT EVEN TOK TO HIM LAH!!!!....haha..sadded...even my mum said i am a coward...dun even dare to walk up to him yah!!!!....but i am not a flirt mah......dun even noe how to flirt lah!!!...i am not kiddin...haha...but he is really cute yah...a brief descrption....Blond curly hair...erm...damn damn tall!!!!...erh....a head taller dan me!...and a DEEp eyes...haha...almost fainted starin at him..haha....can u imagine!..haha...kkz...met him when doin CIP..his dad is one of the disabled sailor..i guess..but...it would be a miracle to ever see him again....ha...anw...the crush is really for fun.....yah...quite fun...yah...haha......

Sry to keep my blog soo stagnant...i am just pure lazy..hehe....still misses HIM...but not tt much le....inference skill needed here...yes....infer..........

SIngle again.......how nice...how sad....

2005-10-08T03:38:00.000-07:00

眼淚成詩
歌手：孫燕姿作曲：劉寶龍填詞：林夕編曲：Terence Teo

我已經　已經把我傷口化作玫瑰我的淚水　
已經變成雨水早已輪迴我已經
　已經把對白留成了永遠忘了天色
　究竟是黑是灰

＊分手傷了誰　誰把它變美
　我的眼淚寫成了詩　已無所謂
　讓你再回味　字不醉人人自醉
　因為回憶　總是美＊

我已經　已經把絕情變成了恭維
因為不配　你就忽然自卑說聲失陪
我已經　已經把沉默變成了懺悔無路可退
　只能無言以對

分手傷了誰　誰把它變美我的眼淚寫成了詩一首
　無所謂讓你再回味　字不醉人人自醉
你的品味　總是美

ah.....really sad yah......but big deal!!!!!!!!........i will move on :).......

pig........oink......

2005-09-24T01:50:00.000-07:00

ah.....very stress!!!!!!!...so keep eating lor...eat and eat and eat........cos very stress..........very.....haix......gp finish le....a bit worried...the stupid boy sitting nxt to me write until soo much..... i die le lah..........see u nxt year in j1 orientation......haix........

mIssIng yoU......

2005-09-15T08:30:00.000-07:00

Have u ever missed someone and felt terrible because u think tat he doesn't miss u?
Missing someone is a terrible but at the same time, sweet feeling.
U will be sitting around wondering if u meant anything to him.
Thinking if he ever cares about u...

Rushing to the phone once it rings hoping that it's him.
Looking out of the window hoping that he will surprise u by appearing downstairs.
Sitting in front of the television but thinking of her missing the final episode of your favourite show.
Laying on your bed, thinking of the last time u went out together.
Thinking of how nice it will be to sit under the stars again, talking about everything, your dreams, plans, future.

Logging on to the internet hoping to see him online.
When u realise that he isn't online and did not return your page, u will start worrying if he is okay.
Missing someone is a way of growing up i guess.
It exposes u to loneliness.
It teaches u how to cope with being lonely and let u know that there is actually a feeling known as emptiness.
Sometimes it feels good to miss someone.
U know that u really care and u indulge in the feeling of loving/caring for him.
But missing someone and not knowing if he is feeling the same is terrible.
U feel as if u are being left alone.
So if u miss someone, tell him/her and let them know.
At the same time, ask if they miss u.
Don't let the feeling of missing someone become jealousy or paranoid.
If u are the one being missed and u know it, let the other party know.
if u miss him/her too, tell them. Don't let them wait....

PS....tks hara

A love story about them......

2005-09-14T23:32:00.000-07:00

(as promised....since i got nth to do....so write a story lor)

First three month was really fun....she made many new friends.....and getting used to the new environment. Little did she know, heaven decides to play a little trick. She was separated from her friend, and was put into a new class. Glancing around the classroom, she knew no one. Strangers and strangers.......feeling lost and depress. How she wish to go back to the old days....she wished.....Soon, a week past. She got to know more and more friends.....finally....after struggling for sometime, she blend into her friends, and she got to know her(to prevent confusion, lets call her ah pao). Ah pao is not really eye catching, somehow, she noticed her. Her smile, her cute laughter, her friendliness, her beauty. The two girls click really well. She started with a small crush then now a huge crush. Strange, she came from a coed school, had always been surrounded by boys, why ah pao?........no one knows....I bet she doesnt know too. Love do not need any reason. Soon, they started going out.....as good friends.....watching movie, shopping. She has nv been happier.

However, she realise that her crush on ah pao has transformed into.....love..........
Shes eager to tell her. She started to drop hints.....small hints big hints...........hoping that ah pao will understand.....but our ah pao is too innocent to notice anything. This worn out her patient. She was really desperate to tell her. But, to her horror, ah pao told her that she had a crush on a boy and th boy likes her too. Her world fell apart....how could it be......feeling really depressed.

She sat on her bed......she decided to write ah pao an emil.
"I really love you, i hope to give u my everything. But i know its impossible. Hope that u are happy with him"

After pressing the "send" button, she took out the penknife..............

Pressure= Force/Area.........

2005-09-12T19:02:00.000-07:00

Haix......havnt been having appetite these few days......issit stress.....dun wanna blame everything on stress....stress should make me better...issnt it......okay.....so what if i feel tired ALL the time....feel like sleeping ALL the time....really tired....cant finish my hmwk....WHY....they've got 24hrs too wat.....why is my 24 hours shorter than the others....bad time management????.......dun think soo......or.........mayb bah....haix.......oh yah....JW's blog...haha...interesting LOVE story bout him and her.......haha.....not laughing at u...really...but admire your courage...i dun have the gut to do so....a bit embarrassing....haha....yah...okok...i will try though....haha....jia you!!!!!!!

meeting at KAP, 9/9/05

2005-09-09T19:15:00.000-07:00

HAha....bery gd.....the stupid guy didnt come. We cant do without his survey EoM.....he even has the pw working file wif him. Swithced off his hp, saying that he has tornament tml. Bery gd..........i controlled myself very well tday, didnt say anything bad. Everything was neutral. Hows that....only time can tell her how bad this guy is. de cun jing chi....But, after some reflection, i realise that i am at wrong too.....cant always blame others.....(blame ourself bfore we blame others)........i agree.....i am bias against him.......I should have given a chance to prove his worth.........anw........we have given him the chance issnt it. The Survey. Very gd....headr from eileen that he has done it....speechless....anw....watever it is, i just dun wanna my relation wif her to turn sour....so i will keep on being neutral....(cos she suan me until i wanna squash her)........after that......i think shld just be a classmate cum stranger. Shes too extreme le.....she said that all english songs suck...erm...isnt this extreme...i think that no matter what we shld respect the others viewpoint.......and only think that ours are always right....think she has been showing this when the pw just started. She kept shooting down wai's idea, and yeh, she did contribute. But the ideas are really so vague and it sounded despo. Shes like in her own world. and everyone gotta obey the rules in her world.....cant stand it. But since pw requires us to work with ppl.......so bo bian lah......finish the pw.....jia you...

of course i cant keep shooting others....i think i am another slacker in the group. haha....i did contribut ideas but they are vague. But wai really contributed a lot of ideas....i always feel that wothout her, our project would not have run so smoothly....yap.......

slacking....

2005-09-06T20:15:00.000-07:00

long time nv blog le!!!...this means.....long time nv do pw le....a bit worried...but haix...wat to do.....dun wanna do lah....duno if shenghua had done his EoM.....msg him also dun wanna reply.....really wanna sclod the F word liao....but i will not...dun wanna loose my cool cos of him....yap.....i dun wanna msg him anymore....let eileen msg him bah.....dun wanna create more misunderstandings......cos i dun think i am at fault. yap......hmm........really got no motivation to do pw......yah...haha....bo bian.......haix....but still need to do.....yap....JiaYou BAH!!!!

25th August 2005

2005-08-25T08:13:00.000-07:00

no PW meering tday...but MUST blog....cos appearantly we have conflicts between the group members...and the reason is because of fei shenghua.....can u believe this?......BECAUSE OF HIM AND EILLEN GOT ANGRY WITH THE REST OF THE GROUP...she said we INHUMAN(mei ren xing).....firstly i look human....secondly....if we are unhuman...i would have reported him long long time ago.....and not wait till now.....if she think she is so noble...why not she provide him with all the materials......why must she ask us to give her....issnt her action very selfish?....she wants US to provide him with materials....and he does have materials.....he is the one whos reluctant to do research.....he is the slacker.......wats wrong with reporting to the teacher??........FINE....she actually told me that she doesnt want to tok to me...but we are PW grp members u noe...how can we not tok...why is she so weird??.....why must she do something tht is silly and can she think bfore she does anything?....can she stop being so "human".....haix...i am damn frustrated.....F***.........

PW....A BIT sucky....

2005-08-23T09:49:00.000-07:00

aiyoh feel damn weird to put my pw I &R thingy on blog but bo bian.......i will definitely loose my pieces of papers....so computer more safe....anw...stagnant again....i dun wish too....lied to my friends in their survey that i blog almost once a mth....i think...its longer than that...haha...duno wat i am busy wif....just busy....pw....hmwk....cello....at least co didnt add in...otherwise...sure die...haha.....at least by putting my I & E stuff here, i will have an excuse to blog lah....on the way mah...haha....yap....promo comin soon....a bit stress...no chatting on msn le.....just a few mth of not chatting...wun die....wun die......erps.....got a bit jealous las nite....cos he put some girls foto for display pic lah...i just got angry...duno y....feel a bit bad tis morning...but feel a bit weird apologising...so....duno...haha....think i get jealous q easily...haha...now then i realise....anw....ppl say my fault...so my fault lah....ntl....now focus on promo fst....tok bout relationship latr.....stress.....haix.......

23th Aug 2005

2005-08-23T09:42:00.000-07:00

HAd a session with Mr Goh today, we finally told him about the problems we have with shenghua....somehow, his reaction was to make him more into the group, at least he was assigned a very important task...of course we cant say anything lah... but somehow, i trust shenghua eniugh that he will do the job quite well. Although he is a slacker and and curly hair....but mayb i shld trust him this time. Eileen said we a bit mei ren xin, to tell GSH about shenghua, but i feel there is a need cos i felt the injustice and the unfairness...we are working soooo hard for the PW and he didnt even contribute....to be frank.... its like only wai, me and sometimes mag doin all the talkings...eileen and shrnghua A BIt quiet......i feel that they should join in the discusion today....we see things from a different point of view.

MY pets

2005-07-25T02:52:00.000-07:00

haha....tis is lame...but just wanna show off my pets...they are all so cute lah....i mean my neopers of course...haha....dun bother reading all my entries...but drop by their webpage yah...haha...i feel lame LOL...but NTL....drop by lah hoh..haha....My first pet is AGnan...a yurble, then the second one is chips_more_van....really out of name le....bo bian.....sry bout tt van...but he is cute...haha.....
aGNAN: http://petpages.neopets.com/~agnan
chips_mOrE_van: http://petpages.neopets.com/~Chips_MoRe_van

STress...and nth else...

2005-07-24T06:53:00.000-07:00

Sry hoh....long long time nv blog le....really busy....damn disappointed bout my CT.....results are bad enuf to jump down the OUB building...haha...i wun cos i heard will look very horrible...so mayb poping sleepin pills better....haha...just kidding...dun take them too seriously...just very tired and stress....concert coming....pieces "a bit" boring...yah....anw....all concerts are boring....only the players themself are enjoying themself....looking forward to the concert yah!!....cos a lot of my GOOD friends comin!!!.....MISS THEM SO MUCH....except tt someone not goin....sadded....haix...anw....i damn gd lah...finished function1 liao...starting on function 2...haha......yes...ok nth to be happy bout....tks van and fiona....still care bout the blog when the owner almost forgot bout it...haha....oh..i lied to yanjun tt i blog every 1 mth....so fake....but anw...pw suck like hell....i am gonna curse and swear pretty soon... \and oh yah....something very sad....i mean i am sad....a friend of mine wererunning for co exco...then he used my words then got the chair position. I told him q long time ago tt our co's problem is tt there were no bonds between sections....he stolen my line....haix....well he didnt really "steal" but....i just feel some sort of cheated....haix...i will shut up nxt time...i didnt run for exco...so....no big deal...but he....aiyah...suan le....shld just concerntrate on my studies and play my cello well....the rest not my problem.....yap.....(got so surprised that he is the chair.........).....haha

happy but really tiring....

2005-06-09T10:05:00.000-07:00

ah....finally back from the camp....and i survived...haha....read van's blog..their camp sound so fun lah...and their food better than ours...i think.....aiyah...i feel soooo useless.....why....cos:
1. the food SUCKED!!!...the rice is hard....the vege and other staff is tasteless.....yuck....and forced to drink some xiao mai cao thingy tt taste like yam(i hate yam)...god....i didnt finish all my meals....so gotta eat biscuit in the middle of the nite....oh gosh.....
2. i really appreciate my bed now....u know how uncormfortable just to lie on the cold hard cement floor.. and now i have to sleep on it the whole nite!!!......back ache...neck ache....and head ache....ah.. really didnt slp well....or shld i say...i dont think i slept....tt is not sleeping....keep on waking up....haix....
3. haix....i screw up both my sectional and da zu...cos didnt slp well..i think....then got mood swing every am....so sad...cos didnt sleep well mah....and oh....MRE PIMPLEs....i am gonna die le....i think i have been havin pimples since las nov(durin o)....and now came back again....die....shld stop eating fried staff.....oops....ok....come back to my camp...yah....that stupid po shui.....and that stupid cello part....i can reach all my postion..BUT...the crossing of strings....ok i must admit..i did pretty fine:p....BUT...duno why...just screw up during da zu...then tt TYS kept staring at me....aiyoh..think really didnt slp well...
4.YEH...our grp came in third position...haha...we came in first for our treasure hunt...min chao damn smart lah!!!....he really very gd yah....haha..and so nice...to everyone of course...then da xiong trash our grp for captains ball...he really gd lor...think only he is playing...then other ppl all just posing ard...i was the captain...and this CH guy....i really really really really really.........HATE HIM....he rock the chair!!...i so scared lah!!!...dotz...then slam my friend...showed him my AP throughout the whole camp..and still dare to smile at me...oh yah...nv say sry also....HE SUCK.....weirdo......
5. we play bridge!!!...such a nice game..hehe...won so many times lah...haha...then da xiong taught me how to play ground bridge...haha...so nice of him...he and kiwi and jane broke their promise!!1....they promise me to stay up the whole nite..then in the all fell asleep...but cant blame them yah....but i really dun wanna slp on the cold hard floor...

so conclusion..i am too pampered at home...mayb i really need to go to the countryside and do some farming...haha...i think i will die on the spot...haha....but at the same time i feel so gd to be at home....did i mention the bath rm....argh....i can only spent 15 min...which is really not enuf for me...and plus is cold water...ah...nvm...anw...its a fun experience to slp and eat wif my seniors and ces...and other fun ppl....haha....CELLO BASS SEC ROCKS FOREVER!!!!!!!!!!!.......always......(ps misses him a lot tooo....hehe)

nice lyrics....q impressed

2005-06-05T12:50:00.000-07:00

damn surprised when my class mate told me that he is going to sign up for the sajc chinese song writing competition...feel like laughing at that time...until i saw this...was really impressed....his face dosent match with the lyrics..but anw....人不可貌相...haha.....but the story behind pretty sad yah....but i like it....so put it here...just in case it really win or anything..haha....(got chance got chance...haha...feel so bad yah.)okie....enuf of my crap....

爱情悲剧
情人节我送你的玫瑰
静静在角落枯萎
恰似我的憔悴
涌动着忧伤的香水
泛滥的眼泪
也挽不回
难道这就是悲剧之美
想起凯普莱特的假面舞会
眼泼沉醉
公主一般高贵
面具下华丽的修辞
罗密欧的自卑
不自觉地多看你一眼都是罪
竟希望像他们的结局那么伤悲
在你一吻中我沉醉
至少也有一种莎士比亚的宏伟
你却连一个背影也没给
留下我对镜胡子拉碴的颓废
不知不觉弄得自己这么狼狈
这一丘比特不能飞
失足坠下一株生于爱情的月桂
虽然它有着诗样的葳蕤
这了金弓让他忘记自己是谁
只能一遍一遍地
重复着忏悔
期待你会不会在悲剧落幕之前收起你的无所谓

finally .....haha....he write until a bit chim...but q gd le...haha...duno y he write so sad yah...but duno y i like such lyrics...cos its very 凄美..same as movies and others....duno y leh....though i like cartoon and comedies at the same time....but canot stand love stories which r not funny and with happy endings....haha....i am strange..i know....haha...anw....i am q impressed wif myself...finish typing in a few min time....chinese not bad sia...haha.......

i am a nice girl...

2005-06-04T23:40:00.000-07:00

i am gonna explode anytime any min........one of my dear grp members keep on rejecting the idea when all of us agree...and she refused accept...i really wanna scream at her....y so stubborn!!!!....ARGH...i m nice...i m nice....i must ren....ren....ren....type a hundred mayb will have gold...haha...if u know wat i mean..hehe........

HURRAY!!!...HOLIDAY......

2005-05-28T16:59:00.000-07:00

YO!!! LOng time nv blog liao...haha...to busy.....with sch work of course...got a bit stressed out...but finally a month of rest...i having waitint for this moment...LOL...SO HAPPY!!!!!!....okay.....a little summary for the last 5 mth....

1. found myself a gr8 girlfriend and boy friend(=p).
2. GOLD for SYF!!....Participation in the SYF open day...
3. Got to know a bunch of GD friends....
4. Still doing ok for my study....
5. Finally knew how to shoot a bbal...
6. Still eating a lot...and healthy....
Okay.....some useless summary..haha... we shall now stop looking back and look forward!!....
well not to far...hehe....

1. GOtta study for Commontest....hoping to get a B for phy and math...and HOPEFULLY can pass my econs and GP.....must go pray harder....hmm....
2. Gotta prac cello yah!! Exam coming...cant slack le ah....at least a credit!!
3. SAve up for the nice shade....(topshop one...damn nice....though i look like a poser...hehe)
4.Again...try to eat mre healthy and hopefully...slim down(sound so impossible...hehe...but still must try lah)
5.Study hard.....play hard....try to slp early(sound very impossible too..but still must try)

ok....tts all....know its boring....but for me to see wat...haha....tight schedule tis holi cos got PW.....bo bian.....must ping dao di.....shall not give up....haha....

to veron: yo gal!! if u r free, we go out yah!!...long time nv see u le....miss u damn a lot...hehe

not a gd day.....

2005-05-17T21:30:00.000-07:00

haix...y am i so clumsy lah!!!!!!......I rubbed out my contact lense....then drop it on the canteen table.......so.....one whole day with my vision so blur....can see nth lah.....as gd as blind......haha.....even going home was a problem....cant see the bus number....at least got papa!!!....he send me to raffles town club.....then waited till i got on 190....so nice!!....i bet he's gonna treat his gf very nice lah!!(hope tt tt person is mama...hehe).....wanted to ask him lah...but he got lesson....so sad lah....bet he is tired anw...so bu hao yi si always fan ta....

find myself a bit paranoid these days....i feel like msging him whenever i am free lah...but i feel tt i am very irritating lah.....haix.....then start interpreting all his replies...ah...then starting to imaging things..........ah..........yulei....pls calm down....keep COOL!!!....kkz...i am cool...:p

Van say i always make her mre angry bout py!!....die...think i am seeing things fr a very bad way....bad....nxt time i shall shut up....=x......but i ....ah....nvm.......shut up....

MJ say lum say cello bass very lan.....i very ANGRY......then ces cried...so xing tong lah!!!......i shldnt have came back!!!!! then i can show lum my AP!!!...STUPID.....we not lan lor!!!...WE ROCK BIG TIMES!!!!dun care wat other ppl say....

i spent too much tday.....i have got only 20 left for the rest of the week....sob.....eat wind tml.....and the rest of the week...haha....can jian fei at the same time...haha....gonna study for econs test liao.....hope can sleep early tnite....

2005-05-06T19:45:00.000-07:00

argh...i kinda regret.....i didnt run for exco.....i think i made the right choice...but...wh and yl sure will be in exco one lor....vice chair made it....the chair didnt....seems like everyone of them are running for exco....but its too late for me..hehe...to bad...i dun want to be under tt tek and be a dog....i have my own opinions....if i cant voice them out, i dun see the point of being in the exco....but still....haix....

tried my best to save 40 bucks tis week, bought concession, mum refuse to return the money to me...and will be giving me only 30 bucks....i think i should be able to save enuf money nxt week....

scared

2005-05-01T05:19:00.000-07:00

haha van i totally understand your feelings.....i started the blog for fun....thought could use it as my diary...at that time only 1 person know bout this blog...but soon u knew...then mre and mre.....ur blog is mre of a everyday recount lor...mine too...cos didnt want to write too much....nvm...we can start another secrete one...make sure no one knows bout it....haha.....then u can GB as many times as u want...hehe...........

went lunch wif hp and hx....haha...damn happy yah...but we are not so close liao....realise tt no matter how close u were wif someone....after sometime...feelings fade away....we are still gd friends no matter wat...but close one like me and van....not really....so sad yah....but somehow me and veron manage to work it out...mayb is because of our character...

put make up tday....haha...then a lot of ppl look at me sia...feel so pai seh...haha....kkz...i a bit bu yao lian....but i really feel tt i look pretty nice wif make up....everyone looks nice wif a bit of touch up...haha....kkz...i too zi lian kuang liao...took a lot of pic....hehe....will look nice on tue....van come and see kk!!! cos i know u will come early one....to....see...hmm....nvm...LOL...i promise not to niao u....i promise...hehe...i try my best lar.....

inspired........

2005-04-26T22:15:00.000-07:00

no mre brain cell...so decide to copy and paste....got it fr yan jun(o5s02, damn cute gal)...

Loved
It is not the feeling of love,nor is it the act of giving love, it is the simple feeling, and pleaure of feeling loved. Everyone wants to be loved;yet sometimes, it turns up only when you least expected it. It is the feeling that has care, warmth, kindness, and a certain kind of sheltering all wrapped into one packaginf, it is the feeling that everyone needs, and wants, from the young to the old, from the poor to the rich, from the housewives to the CEO in a big company. You could be loved by your family, loved by your friends, loved by someone in a romantic way, but to be loved does not mean that you must give the love back, but to be truely loved is to be loved unconditionally, without any strings attatched. Pemember, you can never force someone to love you, all you can do, is to be someone that can be loved.

Diappointment
Disappointment. It does not necessarily have to contain anger in it, in fact, it is a harsher feeling; Anger will, and can, go away, but not always disappointment. IT is, more of something you feel after a loss of something extremely inportant to you, when your heart seems to sink into oblivion, and even sometime, seems like it can never be brought up again. It could happen after a betrayal of a friend, or the result of the test you had studied so hard for comes back with results that are not exactly up to what you expected....People go through countless for disappointments in our lives, and it is up to themselves to pick themselves up again, to learn from their disappointment...Believe me, I've gone through that.

stress.......

2005-04-25T22:15:00.000-07:00

arh...i have no time to study my test...how??....co ends late tml...and the day after tml will be econs test.....finish liao....gonna start on trigo 2 liao...i am way behind time man!!.....haix....stress...

arh.....talked to van tday...i tok to her everyday...hehe...anw....yap...i really cold hearted yah....anw...i really xin han yah...i think u shld understand wat i am toking bout.....pretty tired also....hmm.....anw happy for u arh....find u very funny...haha...a bit pervert also....hehe...hmm....kkz....i shld stop tt...u will scream at me....just kidding....like ppl will know wat i am toking bout like tt........

van: u rest well yah....dun be too stress over band and hmwk...and for heaven sake stop drinking cold drinks...u wanna die issit！！！

a happy day afterall....

2005-04-23T08:23:00.000-07:00

YEH!!! Problems solved....tks to me sia...haha...kkz....so...yap....dun think need to worry liao....haha....kkz....put on contact liao....hmm....kinda worried yah....duno how to put....damn clumsy man.....haha.....but look pretty okay without specs....a bit strange....mum say no diff...how can be no diff...nose feel so light...hehe....

kkz...bad things....xuanny(IP) need to do demo for the IP programme...although mr tek was going through some really important stuff...but she really need to go lorh...sandwich between adults is the last thing u wan....as a polite student...she asked for permission fr mr tek to leave...he gave her a super super....duno how to say...but anw....damn selfish yah...poor xuanny........

anw....heard tis song on the radio....damn nice!!!!

你知不知道思念一個人的滋味
就像喝了一杯冰冷的水
然後用很長很長的時間
一顆一顆流成熱淚
你知不知道寂寞的滋味
寂寞是因為思念誰
你知不知道
痛苦的滋味
痛苦是因為想忘記誰
你知不知道
忘記一個人的滋味
就像欣賞一種殘酷的美
然後用很小很小的聲音
告訴自己堅強面對
你知不知道寂寞的滋味
寂寞是因為思念誰
你知不知道痛苦的滋味
痛苦是因為想忘記誰

haha...nice lyrics too...erh...i just like tis song....no other meaning...dun think too much...=P

slacking at home...

2005-04-21T17:00:00.000-07:00

arh...had a terrible migrain tday...wish i could chop of my head to stop the pain....so went to the doctor....the doc said the white patch on my face is due to fungus infection....my god...i was disgusted....FUNGUS INFECTION....imagine a mushroom growing on my skin....YUCKS!!...haha...must be py's bball....cos i got it after playing bball...haha...so slpet the whold day..due to the medicine...but...manage to finish some hwk...haha....

haix tml got co again...i dread going to co yah....i think we are doing housekeeping tml...so shld be able to be released early....then can eat early and go home early...haha...

BDAY wishes...

2005-04-20T05:47:00.000-07:00

KK....tt stupid tang lang(veron)'s bday is on 6 JULY...but his bday wish list is already out...HOW CAN!!!.......when mine is 4 may and no bday list yet....i shall not speak bad bout him....later veron ham tam me...haha....kkz...tis yrs bday wish list:
1.world peace...i hate wars=i hate BUsh....
2.improve my grades...
3.play cello better...especially my chords...
4.lose weight....i dun want to tell u my weight...haha

just realise tt i dun really need anthing...not like tang lang(mp3 i pod mini)...LOL...sorry veron...i have everything...haha...so....duno lar....give me slimming pills as present??...haha...neh...i prefer the healthy way...if i am really tt despo than mayb i will try...heard tt its pretty useful.....

arh...went to swiss co tday...they have really grown....and they played pretty well...with movements and all tt....i think some of them play better than the nj ppl...i cant help but say they are really unlucky...veron(my senior cum best friend) and i went to buy satin ribbons for them...went to west mall, jurong east, jurong point....they just dun have the colour we want....haix...so suai...i seriously think tt they shld go do some praying....but their syf is tml...i shall pray for them...silver....not bronze....

haha....walked around JP...veron bought a little key chain for tang lang...i damn tempted yah....cos the key chain really nice!!!!.....its a glass basket ball...haha...then we saw tis monkey key chain...i feel bad but the monkey looks like him....haha...fst is squirrel...now monkey...but really look like him yah...haha...wanted to buy...cos really cute...but....i promise my mum to save some money tis week...so mayb i go get it next week or the week after...cos its tooo cute.....and its not ex.....haha....yes!!...bday coming...i am turning 18....can u believe it...sounds old....hhaha...

sadded...

2005-04-19T22:45:00.000-07:00

i feel really depressed....but i really duno wat to say....i love to convert all sad things to tears instead of words....i am transfered fr the 3rd desk to 2nd desk....i duno wat to say to my seniors...i feel so bad for them....no matter wat...they are still my seniors....they deserve to sit in front....i can really see how unhappy they are....then the stupid guy reprimanded me on how bad i played my chord...he didnt scold me...but i must say his words are really hush....i really could not take it...

i seldom complain bout stress...but somehow my body is complaining bout stress....i have pimples on my shoulder and back....its so ugly.....argh.....haix....i promise my parents not to complain bout stress....i dun break promises....i hope the stress will be gone after syf....

my eyes are dry...

2005-04-17T04:07:00.000-07:00

hmm...cried the whole day...haha...really...at least the whole of my sunday am and a little of the afternn....dun ask y...i will not tell...just feel tt the society nowadays is too dark....too dirty....ppl using each other to achieve their motives....so sad...y cant everything be a litter simpler.....

arh...enuf of the sad things....yeh!! bday coming...18 liao...so scary sia...sound very old like tt!!1...i wanna go back to primary sch leh...haha...my body shows 18...my mind reflects 8...haha....mummy bought me present liao...damn shock yah!!!!meaning didnt expect them to buyTHAT....thinking of psp...but haha...they buy liao...thinking of inviting all my gd friends to lunch....at least van, fiona,zr,wl,daddy,xuanny....(nj), huixian,huiping,wanghan,veron(aj)...haha.....happy lar...but i like very thick skin...haha....duno y lar.....haha....

nothing much to say...

2005-04-16T08:55:00.000-07:00

hmm....really got nth to say...oh yes...i cant believe i bought cosmetic......me.....haha....strange.......i was forced....co ppl say must wear foundation....bo bian...must buy...my skin so nice...no need lar(hehe)....hmm...kkz....haha...

spoiled bRaT....

2005-04-15T07:53:00.000-07:00

haix...just realise how spoiled...how selfish i am....no wander wanghan(old gd pal) said tt she cannot tahan my da xiao jie pi qi....i admit lah...i get wat i want....anything....tts how my parents treat me...handphone...laptop...simply anything i want....my family is not rich(stop saying i am rich)....but i must admit tt i am fr a well-to-do family.....tks for telling me tis, van.....got pissed off again....shldnt have reacted like tt....i apologise yah...to fiona and zr...haha....tks for your understanding....but i mood swing when i am hungry......haha...

i am very happy at co tday...the conductor praised me...mr tek said my tai fen very gd...haha..instructor wanted me to sit at the outer desk...haha....stress...still cannot memorise the score...kept on peaking...haha....

dun feel like talking bout him....especially when he is gonna read tis...kinda funny...wanna know anything come and ask me lah...kpo ppl...haha....btw...zr a bit nosy(like mother like daughter,fiona zr is ur daughter tts for sure)....go and ask him wether he like me a not...haha....expected tt stupid ambiguous answer....so...stop asking him liao...tks for ur cooperation.....

Hi Xuanny!!! sorry now than tell u the blog...haix...stupid me...act this blog is for all my gd friends to read so tt i dun have waste my saliva...haha...can save mre time on other things...

gd or bad..............

2005-04-14T05:46:00.000-07:00

Arh.....i don not have to take napfa for the rest of my life.....haha...kkz....jc life...ppl dun get jealous....my knee really hurts when i jump....feel so weak sia....well i am kinda weak lar....feel tired very easily...

worried bout van....shes under stress....but there nothing i could do to help her...useless me...the boys seems to have so much time to do their homewrk....but she just dont have the time...plus the boys are so insensitive....poor thing....i think i am worse than her...wif all my work half done....haix....

...hehe

2005-04-12T08:32:00.000-07:00

arh....again...tis is the second time i am typing tis....the comp is driving me crazy....

kkz....arh....did okay for my napfa....cheers!!!!haha.......

haha....arh big tree said i very fat!!!...he is not the fst person to say tt liao....haix...i guess i reali am fat...arh...how...must stop eating liao....diet!!!...kkz...tml i shall eat as less as possible...save some money to buy things...haha.....

aiyah...stupid ZY....took my econ lecture notes...tml got test leh....i for sure die...die....he will get it tml.......

pig head....

2005-04-11T23:10:00.000-07:00

tis is the second time i am typing tis......i wanna kill the comp liao....:(

anw haha...told van and fiona the whole story.....they scolded mi lah....for playing"hard to get"...act i dun see wats wrong...gals must have their own jing chi mah!!!...kkz lar...i try to play "easy to get" kkz....though intermediate would be better....haha...lame(in both ways...due to muscle fatigue..) they pity him and wanna beat me up lor...haha...do watever u wan...just dun touch my beloved face....its too precious....

Haha...fiona managed to persuade me once again not to forget him....anw its a bit hard when i kept on msging him....i am sooo.......dorz(duno wat to say)...useless??...haha...i got try okay...its just tt it did not work...than got even worse....his name just kept on appearing in my head...haha...kinda sweet though...anw....kkz...i dun break promise....though i feel a bit xin han....funny huh...haix...i guess tts wat all girls gotta go through....haha...fiona must jia you!!!!!!!

hatred...

2005-04-10T21:45:00.000-07:00

I duno y...i feel tt i have some kind of phobia towards man....i cant bring myself to trust them...i wanted to...i tried...i cant...this is no gd...i dun like it....he lied...He mite be....i am not trying to question his love for me...i know he loves mi...but if the thing is true...i will nv forgive him...no matter how much he had done for us. My bday is coming...he could not be by my side...its like a history repeating...i will nv forget tt yr's birthday... i hope tis yr, its a diff story....i really hope so.

Syf coming...getting gold is hard for co...we are not bonded!! i just dun have the feelong i have during swiss co..its so warm...but i feel cold in njco...its reali hard man...i will cry if we didnt get gold...we tried too hard...of course...face value is also important...

arh..i promise myself and also my dearest mummy(biological one) not to chat on msn so frequently...i am trying not to even touch the stupid icon...gonna remove it from my desktop....yes we(me and he) chat on msn every nite...mayb tt shld come to a stop...after much thought..i seriously feel tt i am not gd enuf for him...mayb i shld stop going to mcdonald every fri...he deserves a much better person than me...seeing him is a pain...fiona: i promised u tt i will not forget him...but i am sorry i have to break it...if u dun wanna see me sad...let mi do it...i know wat i am doing....

haix...under stress....tml is napfa but my thigh muscle is still aching..its even worse than yesterday...i think tt i am gonna fail...planning to get a medical cert to excuse myself...cos my knee is not doing any better...why is unlucky things keep on happening to me...somehow i share the same feeling as van now...go onto the road...get knocked down by some stupid car...i am soo tired...life to me its all bout studying....i regret trying soo hard to appeal...mayb i shld reali go to some ite and learn to cook...i would be happier...see!! how can someone who wanted to go ITE get someone from hc..haha...my foot.....

friends...........

2005-04-08T23:48:00.000-07:00

Handed the letter to ZR, she replied tt nite. she is reali a gd friend, she actually remembered what i told her last time tt we all wear a mask..haha..touched.but last nite cant help but piss off again...but cant blame her totally. I am already dead hungry, they just dun wan to move!!! then i got mood swing...because i was hungry!!!....plus muscle fatigue....arh!!!...forget it.anw, hope tt the relationship between mi and zr will be restored.

unlucky day

2005-04-07T20:20:00.000-07:00

Haix.....soo unlucky.....sprain my ankle during bball game....fell down at the grandstand....soo sad....daddy saw it and he had no reation...soo sad....there i was...sitting on the stairs, laughing at my own, feel like a fool. I am a fool...kept on fooling myself tt i am gonna be okay in everything...friends,school work, or even relationship...i am not okay...how am i not okay??...i dont know.
Friends: miss van damn hell a lot, duno if she miss mi...ZHiru...dun wanna but...i realise tt i dun reali have anything to tok to her...not tt i dun wan or i dislike her...i just duno wat to tell her..decided to write her a letter...i just could not say all those things out...feel a bit mushy...Fiona...haha...very gd mother...she told mi a lot of things...(ps tks for trusting mi)...jus realise tt i dun reali much gd friends tt i can reali tok to...oh yes...Xuanny...a gd friend of mine i know in CO...
school work: i reali hope tt i culd have 100hrs a day..or make the time stop for mi so tt i could just finish my bloody homework...i just cant finish...i just dun seem to have enough time....and i am always so tired..i cant lie to myself...i am kinda lazy=p....i feel so stupid..so bai chi...i should have applied to sime ITE...or just quite my studies...of course i would not....i will break my parents heart......
relationship: i cant help but feel tt i am in a one sided relationship...tis is not even a relationshp...i felt like smsing him,telling him tt i fell down, but i felt so silly,so in the end i didnt... i said i wanna forget bout him, but i just cant...

dance nite

2005-04-02T06:57:00.000-08:00

haha the dance nite was pretty fun...nice music...didnt eat much...mi and van become the anti social group...WL came back...had a fun time...but van went back early....i very sad sia....i reali sad....though i find my new class not bad.(haix...wanted to dance with ttt person...haha...forget it)

hi

2005-03-29T06:51:00.000-08:00

testing testing...

feeling confused....

2005-03-26T12:00:00.000-08:00

aiyah...dun reali feel lyk writing all this on the net and let the whole world know bout my personal feelings...but reali feeling lyk pouring out everything at one go...

1st...damn useless mi....feel reali bad bout getting such a sucky o result...but luckily still can appeal...but I feel reali sad bout leaving 05S21.....though can still meet up with the old classmates....i wonder wat my new classmates will be lyk...scully they ostracize mi how!! haha i know they wont...haha hope so...

2nd...dun reali feel lyk writing tis but...since onli 2 or 3 ppl will be reading tis...i predict...erh....its bout him lor(u know hu...dun act blur....haha)...trying to let go lah...cos i dun reali think we will ever work out...he will find his "someone" in "across the street"...so yah...feeling pretty okay lah....though the feeling is a bit bitter.....though i feel tt he is a reali gd guy...

3rd...someone is trapped in a relationship...not reali but sort of larh...happy for your yah....er....if u need to speak to anione can come and consult mi k!!....if dun mind...please pay consultation fees next time...i need to make a living k!!!
haha kidding onli....if its u and u...(u know hu)....i do it for free lor....

Tired..

2005-01-26T06:24:00.000-08:00

Hmm soo long never update liao. Hmm NJC is fun and it rocks. Yup.

Met the new cello instructor, cant get use to his teaching, feel bored during his lesson, aiyah damn miss Mr poh!!! BUt cant go yuhwa...sigh...

I update liao okay!! Dun complain again...

Last of all, damn tired leh!!! Everyday return home at 8pm... by the time start doing homework wanna sleeping liao...

Hei my class rock like duno wat!!! Met a damn good friend, also got one that I dun like(is it too early? noe her for 3 weeks only leh!!) But she reali damn BAD!!! Copy my work WHOLESALE...its bad.. sigh too tired to continue le lah..

leave msg for me yah, cya(sound like T.L haha)

Fun day at the zoo!

2004-12-13T16:15:00.000-08:00

ok ok dun say i bo liao,go to sgp zoo,its not that bad actually.My reason for going to zoo: after looking at some fake animals(eg. elephant) I need to look at some REAL animals...kk juz kidding...aniway its reali fun.The weather is pretty okay,i have nothing to complain(although its hot) at least did not rain.Saw the lions eating. They feed on raw chicken...god they ate the WHOLE chicken,even the bone...also saw the white tigers, very beautigul and gorgeous animal...hope can work in the zoo someday...

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YEH!!!! Going to HongKong this sat!!!!!!!As they have advertised....shop,eat,shop,eat,shop,eat........okay....pls dun be jealous....i know i know.....opps gonna gain weight liao...sigh....